I’m Not Cut Out For Friendships

2021.11.29 02:28 LemonSlushii I’m Not Cut Out For Friendships

I have BPD. That should be enough of an explanation I guess, right?
I just got out of a 3 year long toxic relationship and have branched out trying to make new friends again. However, I’m reminded as to why I don’t have many in the first place.
I’m so sensitive. I get upset over things and I ramble. People think I’m mad when I’m not or they put words in my mouth. I get frustrated and nobody listens to me. I just become the brunt end of the joke. I have a hard time articulating my thoughts well because of ADHD. When I think, it’s visually, like words being written on a page. If I become overloaded with emotion or fatigue or stress, the words become muddled like overlapped text. It causes me to ramble, or in stressful situations, shut down and become a babbling fool.
This happens frequently. In any group I go to there is someone or other who I dont get along with, which is bound to happen given the servers I join are large— however I don’t go out of my way to interact with people that bother me. But it gets to the point where arguments happen in public spaces during calls.
If I say something someone doesn’t agree with, I’m instantly called stupid. I am so sensitive to rejection and trying to make new friends and dealing with it so frequently every time forces me to shut down and eventually migrate away. I’ve never created lasting bonds.
I don’t know what to do. I don’t like being sensitive but I can’t be in a place where I don’t feel welcome and it happens everywhere. I really just want to be done with my trauma. I want to be able to have healthy friendships and not be worried about everything I say being misinterpreted or taken negatively. I swear the amount of times I say one thing and it is misconstrued or I am called a moron before further explaining is so disheartening.
I have people who tell me to stick around and they enjoy having me around but I find that sometimes they chime in or agree with the people mocking me, or we don’t talk enough for me to actually create a cohesive bond with them or feel totally safe.
I’m scared and I’m always wondering when people will be annoyed with me and give up as friends just like most of my partners have. I try not to be pessimistic but when I get in my moods I am extremely so.. otherwise I’m generally happy and bubbly.
So I worry that when I get like this and try to self isolate because I’m afraid, that they think I’m attention seeking. Sometimes I want to talk to someone but it’s the same thing. My problems don’t just go away and they persist and everyone I talk to about anything long term just can’t put up with it.
I just want to be normal. I just want friends. I just want to fee safe and comfortable.
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“He would reach for me in the middle of the night, nearly every single night, wrapping one of those solid arms around my waist and pulling me in close. So. Close.”
“True love is finding your soulmate in your best friend”
“The way our fingers intertwine feels so natural and right; as if our hands hold memories of meeting in a thousand other lifetimes.”
“I tried to hate you, to forgive you, all just to forget you, but I'm only capable of loving you. You're tattooed onto my skin, and the more I try to erase you, the deeper you sink in.”
“A soulmate will never leave you. They will always be apart of your life until one day the chance is given for them to become your life. It is then you will become one.”
Until we meet again my love…. 🍑💔
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2021.11.29 02:28 Lowkey_Doge I don't know what to do anymore and i'm insanely sad

I'm sitting here with a resurfaced eating disorder in full swing. Why? Because a guy that claimed he had no standards essentially rejected me then tried to get me to hook him up with one of my friends. Like, I already knew I was ugly but damn it sure does hurt when that is confirmed by someone else.
I'll never be pretty. I have terrible looking stretch marks everywhere, i'm fat in all the wrong places and once I lose the fat my skin will just sag anyways, my body is built like a mans at the hips, and on top of all that mess I have a lame-ass boring personality. I'm not actively suicidal but I fucking hate existing. I hope this eating disorder kills me.
Can someone please tell me what to do or how to cope, i'm so lost and empty.
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I am an identical twin. My brother and I started losing our hair at almost the exact same time. He chose to seek poison pharmaceuticals (he got the Covid vaccine too, sheep) and I chose to just shave it bro, just like The Rock. Well once my brother took his first Propecia pill, I got PFS through the transitive twin transmission. Basically he gave me PFS from taking Finasteride. Instantly my boners went from 4.86 inches fully erect to 4.4. I also experienced massive brain fog and anus numbness. My brother claims he doesn’t have PFS but he also said that the Covid vaccine doesn’t have a microchip (it does). I’m looking for a lawyer to sue my brother and Merck, anyone know one that specializes in this area?
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